I. daily routine:
get up
breakfast
brush teeth (&other stuff)
computer + eating
watch TV + eating
sit around + eating
just eating
…
last Fri. after I finished the last two apples and one tomato left in my house (healthy foods saved for last T___T), I made a list of junk foods I would get during the weekend.
YEAH~summer is all about gaining weight…. T____T
II. leaving next Sat.
seriously, I am counting the days.
I. 传说中的忙碌的HIGH SCHOOL is officially over. <—another reason why I didn’t blog on Fri. (the other one being a common 高中生症侯群 called: laziness) ORZ…
II. eh. Graduation was long and tedious…and I definitely didn’t enjoy it because my stomach was empty. 本以为华丽丽的SUMMER开始了,但是发现我还是在过宅女生活,天天以吞入大量粮食为幸福, 减肥为痛苦, 所以我是痛苦并快乐的…
III. Did bad on my exams…but who cares?
IV. Going back to China in two weeks (can you believe it!!??)
Will be in Japan from July 11th -July 16th (this shall be my favorite part)
V. now the serious talk…
毕业确实是个麻烦的事儿.
虽然和朋友口口声声说要保持联系,网络无界限云云. 但是当我意识到那些陌生的,陪伴了我四年的脸以后再也不会出现在我的生命里的时候,心里还是惆怅的…朋友虽然可贵,但是那些擦肩而过的陌生人,或是没有到朋友级别的熟人,同学,也是对我有意义的.
I walked out of the cafeteria on Fri. (where my last exam took place), the sun was shining brightly outside. 我惶恐地抬头. 然后在那一刻, 岁月提醒我: 我的青春
昨天的感觉好象是圣经里的:最后的晚餐.
遗憾: 本来一直打算给我的高中生活画下句号BY confessing to him. But I was a coward. T___T
某丸最最后的心愿也米有达成. 只能在心里默默祝他以后的路要好好走,一个人要好好过(well, until someone shows up).
那么, 我算是长大了吗? 而我, 也和其他人一样, 被写进了历史.
回忆
我想到了出去夜游. 在冰冷冷的话剧场里抱着LP互相取暖.
我想到了九年级去JOJO的生日会,然后是最后一个离开的.
我想到了当我无聊或是郁闷的时候,打电话给小M,JOSSE和LP,然后在电话里和他们一起无聊或是哈啦.
我想到了深夜里复习考试时的疯狂(因为练就了cramming a whole chapter/unit/year worth of stuff into my head in one night) OH YEAH~
我想到了我暗恋了三年的男孩子跟我说的每一句话(虽然加起来可能不到十句). 那时心里有小小的温暖.
我想到了…
谨以此文献给我的高中生活. 那是一段充满阳光的黄金时代.
VI. ps. this summer my new addiction: DBSK!!!!!!~~~~~~
U-Know is my favourite, along with Hero!~
I. I caught cold. Yes, in the summer. 长期处于鼻涕眼泪加呵欠的状态中，脑子里更是空空如也–>I have no idea what we are doing in Chem. T___T
II. Stratford was a fun trip~~!~
I. 地震的时候病倒了–>I’m in a really bad shape lately. Fatigue, headache, sore throat, a failing digestive system are all caused by the accumulation of work. ORZ…
长久熬夜疲劳所致
珍爱生命，远离不良的生活习惯……
II. skipping school today, again.
总有预感迟早某天我家娘亲会把我杀了…
米有办法啊~~
III. what am I going to do with phy. test, chem test, history project, trip….etc!?
XiaoM: we will all survive this, somehow.
Me:…by means of sacrificing our health, integrity (skipping school)….or worse, our marks. OTL
IV. 救我!
I. I should be doing:
four page Eng. ISU, AP Physics, Calculus homework/curve sketching, WHistory FSE
II. It has been a nightmare. A NIGHTMARE
everything went wrong. Everything fell down.
It’s not half as scary to go through the series of unfortunate events as not being able to figure out why they are happening. O___o
As I lay stretched out in bed yesterday I finally figured out…
the summer! It’s the summer!!~
ORZ…
III. going back to torture my already fragile body. The number of pills I’m taking daily amounts to 4.
IV. the next three days…please pass as slowly as possible.
I.
Happy: I finally can say that I am done studying calc. 
sad: realized that I couldn’t do one darn question on phy. =A=
{How do you do kinematics in one dimension again?
how do you solve pendulum problems?}
ORZ….need….help
II.
signs of aging:
-a failing digestive tract
-early morning awakening
I read on mom’s benefit plan that I can see a psychiatrist…maybe I should book an appointment
I. I am sick. As sick as I can be during this crutial time.
headache (went to bed at about 3:30am and for some f*ing reason, woke up at 7:00am), diarrhea (大肠都要拉出来了…OTL…T___T),sore throat (no, not because of K歌,but I caught cold last night)…etc….
我是个习惯早睡的人…
[比中指]
mom: you are in a worse shape than a seventy year-old
maruko: ORZ =A=
十七岁的我有七十岁的悲伤….
我的青春!~
II. new addiction, Fahrenheit! 大东~~~(95度)!!~
我爱你,就像老鼠爱大米~~~~
LP要天天开心,越来越美丽~~
YEAH~LP无敌!~
II. K歌房:
感想如下：
-too much deep-fried stuff
-it took them forever, FOREVER, to get a cup of iced tea on our table…OTL
-态度好差,好差!!~
-K歌是个体力活……ORZ
-it was fun~!
闪亮三JM (because of portrait-right reason (my poor photo-taking skills), the picture is very blurry….)
III. next…three weeks…eeek~~~ >.<
当然是活着了。不然能怎样？不然还能怎样？
明明是懒人，却是劳碌命……
I. 脑死,死机,歇菜…etc. Those words describe my current state. I go to bed at about 2 in the morning and wake up at about 6….OTL….
yesterday after I got out of shower, I noticed the wrinkles on my face, especially the ones underneath my eyes…and felt like crying. There were so many wrinkles. My mom gasped.
T____T
WTF, this insomnia + early morning awakening thing!~
side effects?
split personally…精神分裂…精神衰弱….
I wander around the house like the girl from “The Ring”….mother called me…I responded after five seconds….I could envision myself eighty years later sitting on the rocking chair, reading Peter Pan to my great-grandson. 5555….
II. Went out for a run during the midnight yesterday.
It was drizzling….I was emo and felt like
问:”我是谁?我从哪里来?” 这样的EMO问题.
III. my next little while
1. English ISU-in class essay, Apr 30
2. Chem ISU, May 2
3. Calculus AP, May 7
4. World History FSE, May 7
5. Physics AP, May 12
6. Biology Seminar, sometime in May
7. English ISU essay (4 pages), sometime in May
8. English Content Exam, May 20
9. Most likely a couple of calculus tests thrown in
IV.to me, 对于抵制不抵制 (boycott), 不是强迫不强迫, 是和”爱国”所画等号的东东.
就是一种很简单的心理上的不舒服
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夏天！
什么时候起这样的感觉竟变成陌生和奇异了呢。
